“I left my body and met God
through breathing”

It happened while practicing Witalij Martynow’s Emotional Release Program. This page is an attempt to explain my first out of body experience using this breathwork technique. Each section conveys the physical, emotional, and extra-dimensional sensations I experienced within each body state that I had reached. Sections are in order of what came to me. Read the full experience below.

*Me feeling ‘blissed out’ after an intense emotional and physical release at the end of my breathwork session.*

🚀 Prepare 🚀

Getting Ready

Leading up to this time around, I had done a series of less intense sessions. I feel that each session prepared my body for the next, which lead to my breakthrough on 9/1. As I practiced I felt my body get more familiar with the breathing techniques, which I believe helped me achieve flowstate quicker.

My Previous Witalij Breathwork Experiences:

Experience 1: My first breathwork experience which was at public event in San Diego on June 7, 2022.

Experiences 2-8: Used Witalij’s Emotional Release Program audio sessions, in order, alone at home, about 3-4 days between each full 40+ min session between August 15-31, 2022.

Experience 9: The session of my Breathwork Breakthrough happened during this session while doing the ‘Emotional Release No. 3’ audio session on September 1, 2022.

Mindset

Motivating the MInd

To enhance my experience I had prepared a few things: I blocked my calendar over lunchbreak; put the dogs away; removed all distractions in the house; set up a comfortable, secluded blanket area; burned palo santo and my favorite incense; tied a scarf around my eyes; placed quartz crystals on my stomach; laid down and hit play on the audio session.

I was committed.

Embracing the ‘Fart’

F = FOCUS on breath
A = ACCEPT what arises
R = REMOVE all judgement
T = TRUST your body

Go ‘FAR’ and ‘TRUST’. As in, prepare to go FAR into the experience through focus, acceptance, and non-judgement, and TRUST the body whenever anything comes up. Then go deeper into each state that presents itself. FART is an easy way to remember, and a good reminder that it’s okay to fart if it comes up in the session.

Intention

Setting Intention

I have intuitively felt a need to heal from something unknown for quite some time, years/decades, though it’s been a mystery exactly what inside me needs healing. My goal in doing this breathwork was to learn why I had this feeling inside, and if there was anything I could do to make it better.

My intention: Quiet the mind; find answers for healing.

💨 Session Start 💨

warming UP

I got going per usual, like I’d done in previously competed sessions, altered my breath like I was sucking through a straw, and followed Witalij’s direction in the audio recording.

I was ready.

Getting Physical

After a few minutes, I noticed my lungs starting to feel cavernous. My body began to sweat—a lot—while it was essentially unusable for regular function—frozen, tingling spasms and clenched fingers. I felt I was floating, and had new physical sensations outside my body. As if I was not present or able to physically be in my body, which was terrifying but also comforting/liberating.

Flow

Entering my Wavy palace

I reached flowstate through breath as time slowed down. I come here a lot during meditation—I call it my ‘Wavy Palace’. With each breath my upper lung and throat areas loosened, then something let go and my lungs opened fully, as if they had been clogged for years/decades. I coughed something up and my lungs felt clear and full of life for the first time. I felt free. My soul smiled. Then my mind turned off as I sank deeper into the rhythm of breath.

Wake

Becoming aware

After a few minutes, my field of awareness widened greatly, and I felt an aura or a glow of bright golden light surrounding me. I became aware of love washing through my body. Intense, extreme love. Surrounded and caressed by love. I saw life’s energy which was pure love. In this state I am told: “Love is Consciousness is Soul is Awareness is Light.” I am loving awareness.

We love everyone when we inhabit the soul. — Ram Dass

Focus

Abundance of Clarity

Began to experience deep, deep focus. My thoughts appeared as bubbles floating up from below, in front of me, then up and away. And I could control them; I called any thought I wanted into my focus as if time had stopped or slowed to an indeterminable crawl. I saw the beginning and end of time. Everything and nothing. The unfolding of all things in the present moment. Felt a ballooning of knowledge on a cosmic level, and a deep understanding and awareness of truth.

Mantra

Revealing wisdom

What’s not me.
Leave my body.
You’re not needed.

This mantra came to me while I got lost in the rhythm of breath. I repeated it over and over as I felt new parts of each lung continue to open. The more I said it, the deeper my breathing got, and the more I felt my lungs pushing out more blockages in yet deeper areas. Some breaths turned into a guttural wheeze on exhale, like I was ringing out sponge—my soul donned a giant’s smiled as I felt more even free.

Learn

Unmasking my identity

An intense understanding of my true identity washed over me. I felt/saw/experienced my body for its true purpose, which was that it is as a carrier vessel and an incubator for my soul. “I get it” I said over and over again, “I know who I am” I repeated. At this time I saw the truth that I am a being made of light, and I started feeling my non-physical body. I now understand without a doubt that I am of the Spirit.

I am made of light.

Emote

Extreme feelings

I cried as emotions wildly poured out of me. I cried and cried and cried… I cried so hard I thought I stopped breathing. I think I did stop breathing for a minute.

The crying was painful. It was loud like a new born baby. I felt like a baby as I cried at the pain. I cried from the joy. I cried because I’d learned my truth. I cried most intense when I forgave myself for harming my body. I cried when I realized I hadn’t always been grateful for life. I cried simply because I wanted to cherish every drop of life going forward. I cried because of how much love there was in this place I’d found. I cried because I discovered truth.

Perhaps officially when I realized I left my body is when I heard myself crying from my higher-self perspective. I saw myself on the floor crying from somewhere else.

Commune

Visions of ether

Visions of life played before me. Souls I had previously met, symbols, and other forms all circled my soul. Animals, fish, turtles, dogs, plants… life of all kinds including people and entities with no form—scenes flashed in front of my eyes. Souls approached me as if each were curious to know what I have been up to then faded away into the distance. I felt close to them. I wanted to go with them.

Reality

warping Dimensions

I observed myself gradually ascending; I seemed to be going to another realm outside my body. It began to feel as though I was experiencing multiple dimensions simultaneously, and I could travel between the dimensions with my focus.

Each dimension appeared to be a different ‘level’, and each had their own rules, expressions, and forms of light. One showed the beginning and end of time folding in on itself. Another had fractals and interlocking geometric patterns. Another was pure light.

Why

Meaning of life

During my experience, the meaning of life revealed itself to me.

Duality — We exist in a world of necessary opposites (right/wrong, good/evil, win/lose, etc..). Polarization introduces us to choice, which presents the opportunity for us to learn compassion.
Compassion — Benevolence is an essential tool in life because it grows our soul, crystallizing its form in our non-physical reality (or something to this effect).
Death — Each of our souls live beyond death, transcending this dimension as they ascend back toward Source where we all originated.
Judgement — Scrutiny, bias, skepticism, and comparison toward ourselves and others weighs our souls down and prevents us from ascending
Purpose — The reason we are here is to learn how to live compassionately though our choices and actions, while at the same time learning to release all forms of judgement, so we may be unburdened in the next phase of life.

✨ Source ✨

Seeing our origin

God… Source… The One… it has many names, but they are all interpretations of the same thing. I saw it. And felt the presence of universal consciousness. I was suspended in air moving slowly closer to the giant golden light above me. It felt sooooo goooood… sooooo warm… sooooo loving. It was sooooo bright.

Its beauty was terrifying. I was frozen with love and fear. Reminded myself to breathe with ‘FART’. When I directed attention toward breath I felt a warm, glowing, healing energy light inside and surrounding my body. I smiled at my core. More golden light beamed through my body, dissolving away all pain as it passed each part. My smile grew bigger.

I directed my attention back toward Source and it was the same—terrifyingly beautiful. I was suspended in air, floating and vibrating while moving slowly closer as I gazed in total wonderment.

Fear

Freezing in Panic

I started to freak out after realizing I was quite literally floating—no harness or attachments. I tried to get back to my body, but everything in the physical world was difficult. It was as if I had temporarily shut my body off for use. I tried physically ripping blankets off but I couldn’t move.

Intense vibrating permeated my body while it clenched up. My fingers sprung in toward my palms on their own. When I finally did re-enter my body, it felt weird to be all clenched up, so I left again, bouncing between physical and non-physical dimensions in panic trying to determine which was more real until I gave up and surrendered.

Surrender. I surrender.

Love

Accepting Peace

Something inside told me to accept what was happening. I struggled but listened, then realized that acceptance was the way through it all. Total acceptance. Acceptance of everything exactly as it is brings peace. No changing. No wishing. No judging. Only loving. I accept everything exactly as it is.

Acceptance. I accept.

Forgive

Loving myself

The new, deep understanding and awareness of my body made me realize I have not always appreciated or taken care of it—sometimes to the point of negligent or intentional harm—for which I have have been holding onto feelings of shame, guilt, disgust, anger, sadness… During this state I am taught that I can forgive… I can let it go… I can let it all go. I learn not only how to forgive, but what it truly means in my heart. I question if I had ever even known what forgiveness was as I am realize I am worthy.

I am allowed forgiveness.
I am allowed to forgive.
I give myself permission.
I forgive myself.

Shed

Releasing Baggage

Once I accepted my new understanding of reality, I had a full-body emotional and physical release and sobbed for over 20 minutes. I Kept repeating phrases like: “I see you”, “I can see now”, “I see me”, “I understand”, I feel it”, “I know now.” Intense feelings of euphoria, bliss, and fear washed over me. I felt energy coursing through and encircling my body, as I began feeling my non-physical energy field surrounding my body, like someone turned on a light switch. All the pain I once held onto turned into comfort, peace, bliss, love, forgiveness, compassion for literally everything that exists.

Know

Gaining Wisdom

The entirety of the universe revealed itself to me during my experience, it is no longer a mystery. Everything I did not understand that I had been seeking answers to either needs no answering or I have found the answer. Everything I need to know I know. And I know the way forward, I found the path, which gives me new direction in life.

Compassion is the path.
Non-judgement is the way.
Love is the guiding light.

Identity

Embracing my ‘Self’

The moment I re-entered my body I knew… I finally knew who I was. I have questioned my identity all my life due to having grown up suppressing my homosexuality to appease a culture that preferred conforming to normalcy through gentle subversion and friendly judgement. I became lost in the past thinking my identity was tied to genetics, upbringing, beliefs, geography, ego, desire, social status, or any number of labels I have collected data on throughout my 36 years of life.

I no longer question who I am.
I know undoubtedly who I am.

Unite

we are one

During cooldown the reality of our universal connection settled in. I realized that we are all one, we are all connected. We all come from the same source energy. I felt a deep sense of belonging, love, and comfort. I felt connected to all things through the universal fabric/net/grid of life. A complete sense of oneness touched my heart.

Overwhelming feelings of peace, joy, love, compassion, gratitude, happiness, comfort, grace, and forgiveness came about, as I realized…

Unity is our truth.

Make

Creator Beings

While relishing feelings of pure ecstasy after the session ended, I ponder the new reality I felt privileged to have seen. The experience showed me that there are an infinite number of possible paths my life could take, and that every single one of them have already happened. Past and future unfolding as one singular moment in time that we call ‘now’ in which I control the direction with my intention.

Seeing this truth blew my mind, and taught me that I am a creator of life—same as everyone. We literally create reality with our focus and intention. Those who don’t know this simply haven’t yet realized it, but they are too.

We are all creator beings.

Connect

MEntors and Communities

A slight conundrum is realized: I feel more connected yet simultaneously more alone than I’ve ever felt in life:

Connected because I now understand the beauty and unity that is what some call “God,” and the love that’s exists inside us all which connects us to each other, binding all life as one. With this realization, it’s not possible to feel lonely, because we are literally always connected through the absolute and unifying togetherness of love.

Alone because I am unsure what to do with this profound new insight, and with whom in my life could possibly understand unless having gone through something similar themself. How do I integrate what happened? I am in search of empathy and wisdom rather than judgement or scrutiny.

I call upon the Universe, please help me integrate.

Heal

Believing miracles

With my lungs fully open, I hovered for a while in place appreciating every aspect of my being. I observed my body with astonishment that decades of unexplainable, chronic, pressing, pinching pain between my shoulders had dissipates. I feel free, happy, and weightless and in tears as I marveled at the fact that my pain—much of which I’d gotten used to—had disappeared in an instant.

Sing

Harmonizing inward

While I lie on the floor after this experience I hear all aspects of my self communicating in harmony with one another.

My mind
My body
My spirit

All parts of me are finally speaking to each other—and they can all finally hear each other. Most importantly, they all agree on why I’m here and where I’m going. This feeling is marvelous.

This feeling is what I’ve been searching my entire life.

🏁 Session End 🏁

New Beginnings

Overall, this experience came to me as a complete shock. I originally thought I was in for perhaps healthier lungs and a bit more energy in my day... What I got was the shattering of my previous understanding of reality. As I work to reassemble to pieces I keep getting lost in gratitude that I have had this experience. An overwhelming amount of life insights in a flash.

Bursting with gratitude.

Have you had a similar experience?
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Thank You

Thank you for reading my story. And thank you, Witalij, for changing my life. My Spiritual Awakening has begun.

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My Breathwork Breakthrough

“I left my body and met God through breathing”